Wednesday, July 18, 2012

The smile on my face

After going through pain and heartbreak, I just think I needed an deserved every bit of happiness I am feeling  now. My mind and heart are floating up in the skies where I also draw my strength from.

Peace from within that flows out reaching through to every part of me. Happiness ate every corner. Smiles from me and the people that surrounds me.

I thank Thee for thy healing and for mending the broken and torn heart, soul and spirit of mine.

Today and always, may I continue to wear this smile on my face and be at peace knowing that you are not yet done writing my love story and that I am a work in progress.


mtniere

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

The Heart that Bleeds

Today, I will not be decoding what is on my heart as this blog name suggests. Today, it will be the contents of a bleeding heart which will be poured down onto this writing.
---

Like everyone would say, time is one element of life that should not be taken for granted. Once passed, it will never come back no matter how hard you would wish or want it to. The events of the past, exactly eight years ago, will only remain a memory of the past. As time has passed, I never knew I was still carrying all these emotional baggage with me. Feelings that I thought I had already let go with time, space and distance and now, I am not able to comprehend why I have to go through all the pain yet again.   

Time and regrets, a lot of them really, came side by side and paid me a visit. Somehow, it was an unwelcome visitor. you had your share of regrets but believe me, i had mine too. Confessions of feelings and emotions that will never lead to anywhere. Reality strikes time and again and that reality will always be the one thing that will keep me from you.

Imaginations, wishes, dreams, reality, even regrets.. we will always share a few of them. But like you said, acceptance will be the key.. Maybe time, space and letting go will help cure my bleeding heart too.

I am hurting. I know you are too. Let's just keep the distance for now. Let time decide the fate of our lives.
Lastly, I wish there was some drug or medication I could take that will flush down all the heartaches and bleeding that I am feeling away, instantly.

mtniere